TMI Award
July 1st, 2009It took being tagged to get me blogging again.. Thanks Miss Hanna!
(Just copied some of this intro from her blog since it was put best there..)
The Honest Scrap award is given by other bloggers who consider a blog’s content or design to be brilliant. The awardees must then post ten honest things about
themselves and pass the award on to other bloggers who fit the bill – in other words, whose blog is brilliant.”
I think honesty is put to the test when you tell people things you’d rather not share. Things that scare you. So here’s 10 painfully honest / potentially disturbing things about me (proceed with caution):
1. I have major social anxiety that goes beyond being shy. I can’t stand ‘awkward silences’ and there are very few people in my life that I’m comfortable just being quiet around, one being my husband. Unfortunately, my way around that social anxiety is to talk alot. Which makes it hard for people to understand, since I don’t ‘appear’ to be shy.
2. I was sexually abused as a child and have only recently admitted this to my family. It’s my biggest fear as a mother of girls also, and I think because of this I will always be extra wary of them around strangers and even people close to our family.
3. Over the last two years I’ve suffered with depression and I chose to treat it through therapy and medication. I’ve been a better wife and mother because of it. It’s one of the best things I feel I could have done for myself, even though I was skeptical going into it.
4. I was once so broke that I had to call my dad from a gas station in the middle of nowhere and have him pay for gas over the phone, because I’d gotten lost and didn’t have enough gas to get home. I was so embarrassed.
5. I’ve never been high. But I spent way too much of the years between when I was 18 and 21 drunk. I think I drank more in one month between those years than I have the entire time since then. I also made some of my worst decisions ever during those years and while I know they all added up to make me who I am today, I don’t drink much anymore and that is mainly why.
6. I never really felt like I belonged in any on social circle growing up, and I feel really jealous of my friends who have girlfriends they grew up with and are still really close to.
7. I have specific incidents that come to mind with people that I was not very nice to growing up. I had nothing against them but a desire to fit in and go along with the crowd. I really regret not being nicer. Especially since the people I went along with certainly did not prove to be lasting friends or positive influences in my life.
8. I felt ashamed after having Grace because in all the breastfeeding trouble and fatigue, I did not immediately fall in love with her. I remember feeling like there was something wrong with me.. but I also remember the extreme relief when I realized I was head over heels in love with her.. I also feel very strongly that this is something they should better prepare new moms for. Post-partem anxiety/depression takes many shapes.. they tell you to watch for that, but they rarely say “and don’t worry if you don’t immediately become attached to this baby”… but I’ve talked to hundreds of moms since then who went through the same thing and went on to become wonderful mothers who love their children immensely.
9. I swore I was done having babies after Cate, but even though they try my patience on a daily basis I can’t wait to have another..
10. I’ve been wanting to get back into blogging for awhile but hadn’t figured out how to get started.. almost like starting over from the beginning..
As for the following kick-ass bloggers, I bestow the award upon you, and I dare you to be as honest ![]()









